Intellectually I know what this mean, however this is not fully integrated in my energy.
Most times, I am uncertain what I truly desire, let alone decide.
When I have a glimpse of my desire, I feel I don’t deserve.
Sometimes, I feel I am too greedy.
There are good days when I am sure and then the certainty fluctuates. Good days are days I go with flow of life and know I deserve and receive. And there are days when I feel I need to struggle and work my ass off before I deserve.
Growing up, I was taught “No Pain No Gain”, the harder we work, the more we treasure success.
Ask and receive is such a simple act and yet so hard to do.
Now I know the difference between intellectually knowing or energetically knowing.